Xiaoaxiao's health blog

remember that one morning three years ago, I took from the hospital medical laboratory test came back, he had been eager to hopefully at home for me the good news. Although we were not married but age should not think small children early, so must first be a full physical examination, I thought the only one pregnancy went to register to get married. Checked before the item no problem, but why in the last one – HIV antibody test, laboratory report card is written in the suspected positive. I was shocked, thinking hard all his life yet to enjoy a day Kiyofuku parents, younger brothers and sisters still waiting for me to earn money for their school, I love my pain, he was also expecting more than a year I have born him their children are older with his gray hair. . . . . . Now that too is over.

do not remember how the home later, he saw the door I could not wait to ask: “how the results samples, and all normal, right? “my heart pain, choking speechless, tears he kept dropping. He was nervous: “Do not sad, sick Zan slowly rule, do not be afraid! You speak! Results in the end how it going?” I looked into his calm eyes of many: “My dear, I have no drugs that save the sick, if one day I left, you have to remember that regularly visit my parents, to go every year! you must promise me! “He was scared to rip off my words, and rush over to see the laboratory to see Kanya despair: “We more than a year living together, one person got the disease, another might be spared?” I hastened to console him: “You Do not be too negative, the doctor said you may not be infected, There are many precedents before the couple get it one disease, for many years after the discovery, the other has not been infected, you go to the hospital tomorrow, a blood test now! If you are still healthy, I will leave you as soon as possible, you find live a good woman. “He pressed the:” Are you going? leave me where you can go? do not have to blood test, perhaps the disease is transmitted to you I am, I'm afraid the results are confirmed, so I can not go , I will not leave you, nothing not even think about, how life has been over how to. “

the next few days, that is, two endless silence. He received a packet of a packet to smoke, not feel hungry. I am very distressed, very guilty, but could do nothing, in fact, sometimes men are more vulnerable than women. I went downstairs to buy food every day, advised him to come back to eat, but also advised him to go to a certain blood tests, not yet identified as a result of the decadence. Every night I would repeatedly doing the nightmare, wake up the cry. He is probably afraid to see me cry the way, simply sleeping room, and maybe sneak a lot of tears flowing through it!

after all, to go on the day, and one day he said to me: “We have little money, I keep up a friend went out to do some business for the job will not come back to live temporarily, and let you keep some living expenses, you take care of yourself, do not do anything silly, to be more for the parents sake, I will call every day you. “I nodded:” I will not do anything silly, I'm strong, you too, want to open, perhaps you never sick, no need to torment yourself, so you figured out go to the hospital blood test to know? “he said, talk about it later! Work hard now just want to make more money.

he is gone, I do not want to stay here the chime was full of sweet and warm memories of the town we love, A few days later I also went to another city to start a new life, and intend to never return.

our phone number did not change, has always stayed in touch. After two or three months, he said, come to my city to see me, I agreed. Not seen until two or three months, he was obviously a lot of Cang Sang, but a lot of leisurely than before. He said that he hoped to stay with me. I flatly refused, if he was not ill, I do not want to drag him. If he is healthy, it should lead a normal life, no need to guard an AIDS virus. I asked him to go to a blood test, if he has me so sick, then we never separated. He said he would go, but not now, he has not fully prepared. Stayed two days he is gone, I would like to return to the busy work, we will pass once or twice a week telephone.

about it over a month, he said he went to a blood test, he did not really sick. I cried, I paid so much for the man, after all, was God's blessing. He is very concerned about me, Gesanchawu in to see me, many times I do not let him, I want him to forget me, the women have a family to find a healthy, then we see less and less on the number of .

six months, he said a friend introduced him a girlfriend, only on the points of contact for over a month, in addition to me, He no longer wants to live with another woman, and hope that I give him a chance. I told him not, I will soon find, like me, married male sufferers, told him to give up hope. After that, I changed phone numbers altogether, so that he can never find me.

twinkling of an eye three years later, I lived a very full, the body has not been so unusual. I do not know how well he had, whether a husband a father out? Dear, I have been praying for you! You must live it well I can feel at ease!